Monday, May 9, 2011

PrayFit - Day 1

Day 1 is awesome. I love knowing that what I did is enough for today. I've also started a written journal in a book to keep track of meals, foods, water, and calories.

 Incline pushup 12reps 50seconds
 Crunch 30 reps 1min30sec
 Total time 2min48sec

 I saw incline pushup and thought no way can I do even two! I did 12 and definitley felt it. I'm also starting zumba tonight. It will be once a week. And eventually I'll bring in my kettle bell exercises.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Starting over

On the coffee shop radio - Human Nature by unknown artist.  I have never heard this song covered.  I can't explain it, but I love this song.  If you don't know it, you can find it on Michael Jackson's Thriller.  Most people would consider it a really boring song, but I love the way it makes me feel.  He's singing about being in NYC, the Big Apple.  It makes me think of 1980's night city scenes in movies.  Glamorous, over the top evening wear, fundraisers, bold makeup. 

I quit my job Easter weekend.  No surprise to those who knew how bad it was getting.  It would be different if it were a job I loved with supervisers that care about the employees.  When I have supervisers like that I don't mind the being told what to do and how to do  it even if I don't agree.  They know what's best for me and they care about me.

I went to my counselor for the second time.  Love this woman.  She sees me.  She can see my passion, she can see my potential, she can see that I want so much more from life.  I'm happy, but there more that I want to do.  I am going back to school.  At first I just thought it would be phlebotomy.  I can draw blood.  I can start IVs.  A nice safe job after giving up and walking away from God's plans for me.  That's right. I walked away from Him.  He hasn't shut any doors in my face, He was getting me to stop fighting and slow down and go back to school.

Delores (counselor) used to be a nurse and said phlebotomy is a very small pool of employment. Not many people really need them.  What to do?  Hmmm.  Hmmmmm some more.   EMT is all I want to do.  ALL I want to do.  I want nothing else.  I was called to it, and God will fulfill it, not me.  God will fulfill it, not me.  It is not up to me to make it happen.  That's another thing I've learned this week.  I went up to school closest to me and they are offering the EMT-A.  It is between my skill level and a paramedic's.  I'm doing it.  I've got all but the financial aid done for school.  I'll probably start by completing my core classes, Medical terminology and anatomy and physiology.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Under the Sink challenge week 2

Alright.  I got into the cabinet beside the sink and beside the stove.  (pictures soon).  Now there's a problem.  There's a LOT of space I can't reach.  But the worst is cleaned.  YAY!!!!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Under the Sink challenge - week 2

What did I spend more time looking at, contemplating, dreading and talking to than it took to clean???

 The space under my sink!!!

 I did it tonight.  I opened a fresh trashbag, put on gloves, made a stack of paper towel, sprayed the "floor" with bleach cleaner, put on one of my favorite Dick Van Dyke episodes.  It took me 15 minutes to spray wipe up, and scrub with a copper scrubber, and wipe down again.  Not new looking, but wow!!!!!!

 Thanks, Donna, for the challenge!!!  Loving it!!!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Church Today...

was very powerful.Very.  Sunday School was so good.  I think we help eachother so much every week.  I like to believe at least one person if not more leaves some of their troubles behind when they leave and feel more empowered for the rest of the week.  I know I do.

I'm going to back up for a few paragraphs to last Thursday night.  I thought I had to work from 4-8.  I get to work and the schedule had been changed and I didn't have to work that night.  I wasn't feeling 100% anyway so I helped the prep girl get caught up and went to my Journey group (home church group).  I'm so glad I went.  I think I made a new friend.  Thinking of seeing if she wants to meet me at the coffee shop on Tuesday. Something about the book we're reading (You Matter More than you think by Dr. Leslie Parrott) and the corresponding video really touched a nerve.  That and depending on the unstable unemployment payments - for which I truly am grateful.  Thank you, Father.  I wanted to know what am I supposed to be doing?  Right now.  What am I supposed to be doing?

A good friend in China right now as a missionary would tell me to rest.  My hubby actually says that.  He says that's what Esther would tell me.  But I don't want to rest.  I think this is God giving me a wide open chance to do something new.  If I don't do it now, I don't want to lose a chance God is giving me.  All of us at Journey group were all wanting the same thing - what do we do now?  One woman is looking at leaving teaching, another at her age and her last two kids growing up and moving out, I'm looking at not being able to do what I feel I was called to do.

I'm an EMT.  In Summer 2004 God spoke to me as clear as any voice and said that's what I'll be.  I pursued it, and went to through two classes to get it, worked 4 places, still employed as needed for my home county.  I lost my job with big private company in ATL in Feb 2009, unemployed for 10 months and now working in the deli at a grocery store.  Nothing wrong with the deli, but we've undergone a manager change and he only schedules me 4 hours a week.  If that's not a big sign to get busy and find a new direction, then I don't know what is.

I came home Thursday night need to be by myself and journal and pray and spend quality time with God.  Not just praying, WITH God.  As soon as Trav left for work I shut everything off, no distractions, and sat on the bed with the cat, my Bible, and my journal.  When I opened my journal I saw I'd journaled and prayed a little on Wednesday the 9th, and it had been 6 since my last time.  Wait, that doesn't make sense.  I'd spent quiet time on the 3rd, and not again till the 9th.  By the 10th I was really restless.  It's getting easier and easier to recognize God's calling over Satan's discouraging and depressing mood.

My Wed. nite prayers consisted mostly of thanking God.  I thanked him for my friends, specific friends, talked to him about my cleaning challenge, and then finally told Him what was worrying me.  My recertification for my National Registry EMT.  My state had been done last year.  I am keeping up my license.  God wanted me to have it, He must have a reason.  He just hasn't revealed it to me yet

Monday afternoon continuation.

I think I'm going way off topic in this post.  Sorry it's so long, thanks for still reading at this point.

Back to Thurs nite alone time.  While I was looking for James 1:5 I came across Col. 1:9 (My paraphrasing) "Ask God to give me a complete understanding of what he wants to do in my life and ask Him to make me wise with spiritual wisdom."

James 1:5 (My paraphrasing)  "If I need wisdom and if I want to know what God wants me to do, ask Him and HE WILL BE GLAD to tell me.  He wants me to ask."

Then I found Psalm 116:1-2 "I love the Lord because He hears and answers my prayers.  I love the Lord because He bends down and listens to me; Because He listens I will pray as long as I have breath."

In the span of one week two separate people on different occasions told me to pray for the little (to me) things.  I say little to me, but they costly things - a new couch, heat pump, new roof, mulch.  I've never been told how to pray, what to pray for, that God really does care about if I want a new couch, or a rectangle table.  One of the ladies prayed for a new laptop.  When they got their taxes back she told God she would like to have one and to help her find a good deal.  If she wasn't meant to have one, there wouldn't be peace about it.  She had peace, was able to pay her bills and get a new laptop. So, I'm learning, very slowly, that I can literally give God ANYTHING.  What a new freedom for me.

James 4:2 "...And yet the reason I do not have what I want is because I don't ask God for it. 3 And even I do ask, I don't get it because my whole motive is wrong - I want only what will give me pleasure."

James 4:7-10 "So humble myself before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from me.  Draw close to God and God will draw close to me.  Wash my hands, purify my heart.  Let me cry for the wrong thigs I have done.  Let me have sorrow and deep grief.  Let me have sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy.  When I bow down before the Lord and admit my dependence on him He will lift me up and give me honor."

When the devil flees from me I can feel him draining.  A couple of weeks ago I was so anxious but just could not pinpoint the source.  Once I recognized it as needing quiet time, I just started thanking God - for my friends, my church and praying for others and I could literally feel the anxiety and bad feelings draining out of me. I was so much better for the rest of the night.

When I'm unsettled it's because I've been depending on me.  I tend to treat God as my battery charger.  I spend one day with Him, feel recharged and then ignore Him until my battery runs down and I'm anxious again.

This post is going on.  I could write more, but I'll save it for another post.

"Beloved, God is not tired. Nor is He tired of you." -Beth Moore